My life is a lie.
At least, it can be. We live in a modern age, where our lives are constantly seen and judged by our ‘friends’. But with the age of technology comes the ability to be more fake. We’ve always been able to fool others to some extent, but think of the new abilities photo-shop and the edit button have now given us. Do you know how hard I can work to make others think I am smart, I’m funny, I’m lovely, I’m deep? I have literally spent a day planning a “spontaneous” funny post.
Because like everyone else, I want to put my best self forward.
Even if that self isn’t me.
Because what you never see in Instagram photos is me losing my temper. What you never see on YouTube is me snapping at my siblings. What you never read on Facebook is me turning to my idols of relationships, security, and comfort for my needs. You don’t see the sinfulness — the sinful mess — that is me.
But God does. In fact, He sees more than even I do. He notices those white lies that I let slide off my lips. He knows when I ignored other’s needs because I was “busy”. He watched as I gave that wrong thought free rein.
And He sees my sin more truly than I do. Those ‘white lies’, those ‘forgetful moments’, those ‘little thoughts’ are nothing of the sort to Him. The little thoughts are evidence of a wicked and depraved heart, and in quick succession after them come adulteries, fornications, and murders. (Mark 7:21) Neither are my moments of simply doing nothing overlooked, for if I knoweth to do good, and doeth it not… it is sin. (James 4:17) And white lies are inexcusable as well. God has no levels of lying, every single one is an offense against His holiness. It’s one of the Ten Commandments! And even if I keep the whole law, and yet offend in one point, I am guilty of all of God’s law. (James 2:10)
I may be able to fool the rest of the world, but God knows better. He sees the dirty, toxic sludge of my heart, and all the ugliness and hate bubbling up inside.
But He doesn’t stop with just looking at my sin. He cleans it up as well.
Even seeing the darkest, ugliest, worst parts of me, He stills forgives me, because I am His child. And not just for the things I have done. He’s forgiven me for the stuff I will do as well.
That amazes me. I go to God and cry, “Jesus, I’ve messed up yet again, forgive me!” And He does, even though He already knows I’m going to fail this same test more badly tomorrow. Because He loves us, and is faithful to forgive.
He doesn’t care how far you’ve fallen, or how badly you’ve struck out, Jesus will still forgive you and cleanse you. It doesn’t matter where you’ve been, it doesn’t matter what you’ve done, it doesn’t matter what you’ve said. Hatred? He forgives and cleanses. Lies? He forgives and cleanses. Porn? He forgives and cleanses. Greed? He forgives and cleanses. Adultery? He forgives and cleanses. Anger? He forgives and cleanses. Wicked thoughts, fatal words, arrogant pride; all of them and everything can be forgiven and cleansed away by the blood of Christ.
How do I know? Because He already knew all about them. All your sins were in the future as He hung on that cross 2000 years ago, and He saw them all. And yet while seeing all that brokenness, all the rotting ugliness, all the pain, He still chose to die for them. He still chose to pay the ultimate price. He still chose to take them all off your shoulders, and bear them upon His. He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities, the chastisement that brought us peace was upon Him, and with His stripes we are healed. (Isa 53:5)
Now don’t hear what I’m not saying. God doesn’t give a free pass on sin. He hates it.(Proverbs 8:13) And He doesn’t just sweep it under the rug. If He did so, He would be an unjust judge, because sin is terrible and horrible and makes us worthy of death. (Rom 6:23) But in Jesus’ taking all our sin and guilt upon Himself, sacrificing Himself in our place, He made it possible for us to be reconciled to God. The penalty is paid, the door is open. If we confess with our mouths that He is Lord, and believe in our hearts He is risen from the dead, calling upon Him to take away our brokenness and wickedness, He will. (Rom 10:9) And when we are His children, He never stops forgiving us.
So God’s faithfulness doesn’t get worn out by our sin. Nothing can separate you from the love of God which is in Jesus Christ our Lord. (Rom 8:39) Can we still reap some consequences of our wrong actions? Of course, and we may still have some bruises after our fall. But if we repent, the ultimate consequence, that of eternal death and separation from God, is removed, and He can heal all our wounds. But though we may fail Him, He will never fail us.
So we can drop those chains of guilt and loathing. If we have repented and turned away, calling for Him to come and renew us, we shouldn’t wallow in our past sins anymore. If God has forgiven them, who are we to hold onto something the All-knowing says no longer exists? (Heb 10:17) We can now rejoice in His great forgiveness which endures to all generations, in this great mercy which He continually gives to His children.
For He is faithful in forgiving.
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9